爱。。。。

爱。。
曾几何时，想过放手，
让你去飞翔，让你重获自由。。。。
曾几何时，为你哭过，
对自己说把你从脑海中删除。。。。
曾几何时，你对我说过，
我是你生活里的一部分。。。。
是我把你生活的不足填满，
曾几何时，我们已是对方生活里不能缺少的精神粮食，
但，不知何年何月何日，
我们的距离已越来越远，
我已不懂你在想什么，
你也不再关心我了。。
只好把曾经拥有过的快乐回忆。。锁在心里。。。
把我对你的想念化为文字。。。
如果想念有声音，你会是第一个听见。。。

我的心情日记

今天，3月19日，是我来UTM以来，最辛苦的一天。
为了要帮SENIOR筹钱搞SYMPOSIUM，我和两位好姐妹要卖糖水。今天我们受了81包订单。哇！！！好开心噢，不过，就要很辛苦了。。。
我们连饭都还没吃完，就要赶着开煲煮糖水了。。。
我的房间里布满了饭锅，红豆，绿豆，薏米和番薯。。
我们又煮又要看火，还要折纸袋和绑绳子。。。。又要一直煲水，好辛苦噢。。。
煮到六点多，又要开始包了。。。过后，我们就要出发去送了。我和诗诗一辆摩多，阿淮可惨了，要一个人送。。
我们从KRP开始送，一直到K17。。。呜。。坐摩多到K17，真的好冷噢。。又没带外套，好可怜噢。。
直到十点钟，终于送完了，又要赶回来KP interview, 背penngetua，felo和naib canselor的名字。好不容易轮到我interview，那个死人felo又要为难我。问我一些无关痛痒的问题。还说我不守kolej的规矩，我哪有啊？？？算了，反正都过了，不开心也没用了。
过后，我们三个就去吃晚餐。我们竟然忙到晚餐都没时间吃叻。。真是够惨了。。
吃饱回去冲凉，已经是半夜十二点了。。。
今天对我来说，真的是累到不行，快要晕倒了。。。
希望这些日子快点过去吧。。。。

My LOVE for u....a turtle in UTM

When the first day i cum to UTM,i met you at arked k9.
20/07/2007,jessica introduce you to me...
"This is our new junior~vee vian..."said jessica...
The first sight i saw you,u make me feel that...hmm..dis guy so smart ya..haha
Since the first day i come to UTM,i unhappy,so sad and damn down.....i HATE UTM...so far away from my lovely home~IPOH..i am the only daughter for my parents,i never live alone since that.
But,i tell myself,i must tough!
When you know that i unhappy,you always care for me..Always ask jessica :"how is vee vian le?she ok ma?"Everyday when i went to dinner with you guys,dis is the most excited and happy time for me...u guys all treat me so gud,care me....at that time i feel like i am a "little princess" in utm..haha
But....after 2weeks....u guys didn't dinner with me anymore....leave me alone and want me dinner with my roommate...the stupid reason i heard from "sum1"is....v so hard to match the dinner time with u...ok,it's ok for me..i think i have to find new frens le...can't always stick with u all de ma...
From that day,v didn't met each other anymore...although u stay at Kolej Perdana,when we met at the bus,u oso dun want say hi with me..like we dunno each other...ok,fine..just like we dunno each other lo...
A usual day in August....u send me more than 5 smiles at friendster...give me your contact number and want me contact with u...
At that moment,i so happy...v start to sms everyday...
I cook red beans soup for you,prepare "warm and lovely"dinner for u...my hands injured i oso not mind..as long as is cook 4 u...
One day,in the night,u ask me:"i can feel that u like me...is that my feeling wrong??"
I said:"NO,u are not wrong,i really like u..."
U answered:"I like u too...". At that nite,i shared dis with my 2 best frens at UTM..i excited until can't sleep
But suddenly u tell me:"we can't together...coz u r NOT CHRISTIAN!!! my mum dislike non-christian..."i cried for whole nite after knew it,but i tell myself,i must be strong...i slowly forget u in my mind...
After a week,u sms me,said that u still want be my fren....
U treat me so gud,everynite called me when we having sem break from nov-dec..
After back from sem break,v 1st time go dating(although my frens went oso)...
1st time v take d sweet photo with u...n....1st time u give me a little teddy bear...a couple bear..i keep the gal n u keep the boy...from that moment,i so happy.....at chinese new year,u called me everynite..chat with me...i sick ady,u care for me..
But,sumthing bad happen after v bek from cny...i know is my fault but after dis thing happen,only i knew wat type of guy u r....a TURTLE!!!
All of ur frens and coursemates knew about dis,u hide urself and let me face it myself....called u for 3 days,sms...oso no respon....everynite,i cried....after 3 days,u called me,u said u believe me but not ur frens..but???
U really make me dissapointed...everyday u play dota,i let u go.You want me follow wat u said,ok,i follow...but how u treat me?ask yourself?
I said want cut off friendship with u,u said dun want...u want b fren with me..
but i tell u..if i love you,i can't just be a usual fren with u! If u want me to do so,SORRY,we no more frens!!!
Lastly,i want tell u that i still love u but unfortunely,v dun have fate together..
n may GOD bless you..
Take care,turtletine...